I'm Uplifting

Apparently I'm uplifting. I had no idea. I went to the hospital today to have my labwork done. I go every Monday and Thursday and I have the same lab tech every time. Today she said, 'you've come a long way. It's so uplifting to talk to you.' I don't use quotation marks because my memory is terrible but that's basically what she said. I had no idea what she was talking about but okay whatever. I don't want to sound ungrateful or bitchy because that's not how I feel at all. I just honestly don't understand what all the fuss is about. People keep telling me I'm so strong and I have such a good outlook. I don't feel strong or particularly special about how I'm handling all this. It just has to be handled and I don't see any reason to be dramatic about it. It'll all be fine and if not what am I going to do about it? I'm not afraid of things that have to be done medically. I'm just not. I've never been afraid to have surgery, which works out well for me considering I'm only 32 and I've had around 10 surgeries in my life. I've also never been particularly afraid to die. Honestly, I became much more attached to my life once I had my children. That being said I'd like to live for a long time but it's not up to me. Perhaps I'd panic more if I was told I had pancreatic cancer or some other more dangerous form. But I'm told this is very curable so what's to worry about? Sure it's inconvenient but so are stoplights, should I cry about those everyday too?
I hope I don't sound like a jerk I'm just honestly baffled by the attention I've received. I don't want to discourage anyone from saying nice things to me because I do appreciate it, I guess I just don't feel very worthy. SO that being said, to all of my fabulous friends out there who say they don't know how they could handle my situation I say you'd do fine. You'd be just as strong as you think I am, maybe even stronger. I think no one really knows what they can handle until it's put before them.
Here's another way I look at it. One of the most common prayers I pray practically every night is for David to accept Jesus as his savior. Maybe it'll take something like what we're going through now to make that happen. If me having cancer results in David being saved then it is totally worth it to me.

I have my first real appointment with my endocrinologist on Wednesday so I will probably wait until then to post again with an update about what is to come.